The search for 5 minutes....

Dear E-Diary,
       Everyone has a point in their day where they just need 5 minutes....to have a thought that's your own...to take a breath...to maybe just not do anything....... I feel like I'm always chasing that 5 minutes....only never to get it. I end up cranky and resentful at times. Don't get me wrong here..I love every moment of being a mom. Seeing their sweet faces look up at you as your showing them how to properly crack those eggs into a batch of cookie dough, or as you sit during a bath and have very meaningful conversations with your 6 year old about the worms in the garden tomatos and why they are different colors and sizes,...still, I miss those moments where I was able to pee alone..to eat a meal without having to share most of it......these days I seem to have aquired this entourage of 4 dogs and 4 kids who are forever under my heels...privacy?? Not sure exactly what that means anymore....especially with this family of 6 + pets and no lock on the one bathroom door that we have.....to me privacy is that few seconds where I take out the trash and get to breath for that split second.....alone. That second is particularly nice right now as autumn is setting its stage. Its nice to just breath in that crisp cool air...it seems cleaner and more refreshing than ever, there are colorful leaves everywhere! My thoughts quickly are turned without any effort to what fun we can have with all these leaves. In a heart beat, my thoughts are revolving around my little burdens inside the house that I am always seeking that 5 minutes away from and I realize..... I want them with me to collect leaves and to start a fun project for the litttest ones...to take that picture I have been meaning to take of all 4 of my kids laying in the fall leaves.....to take that walk to get hot chocolates down at the Farmer's Market....I can take 5 minutes some other time...maybe